About Grace

February was really a mixed bag of emotions. I had a wonderful Valentine’s Day with Jeffrey, and I’m making good strides in my journey to a healthier self. The thing that dominated this month, however, was my trip to the vet clinic with Grace.

February 17th I took Grace to the vet for a routine ‘senior’s checkup’ and also because she had been coughing/gagging for a few days since we had gotten back from a trip to Ottawa. That reminds me, I didn’t write about Ottawa. Here’s some pics:

Back to the vet visit. Well, I certainly did not expect to hear what I did, which was that Grace’s lung was compacted. We have no idea how that could have happened. This was a Friday afternoon, so the x-rays that were taken would not be able to be fully interpreted until Monday by a radiologist. Flash forward to Monday, when I got the news that I had been dreading for years. Cancer. Grace has lung cancer. It was advanced in such a way that no medication would help, and surgery at 12.5 years old was not something I wanted to put her through. I am so, so heartbroken.

The vet’s advice was to give her lots of love, treats, and make her feel just as loved and cared for as we have been doing all these years. So that’s exactly what she’s getting. Her cough has progressed a fair bit since the vet visit. My heart feels squeezed a little inside every time I hear her coughing and gagging. Supposedly, I’ll “know” when it’s “time.” I don’t think I am even remotely prepared for that.

I thought I would write more beyond this, but now my thoughts are again dominated by Grace’s condition. More later.

Love,
M.